Let’s do an experiment. I want to see how well this blog post does without posting it with my regular social media channel. It gets one Instagram post, that’s it. Why?
I want to see what Instagram Story does for my blogging, and I am exhausted. I have been going 5am-12pm for the past week and a half with one more week at least to go. This book of mine will be done before November. Stupid Jon Acuff is convincing me to stretch out my goal when I just want to be done. Darn him for fighting me with sound data and logic. I will not stand for it even though his Finish book is awesome. Why?
My Ears Stopped Hurting
This has been an incredible time. My body has finally started to adjust to the 4.5 hour sleep period. My ears no longer hurt when I look at a screen. Yes, that’s right my ears. Ask my wife, I am weird. I get up at 4:55 am and it’s not even hard to stumble downstairs to get my daily Bible reading done, and I am in Chronicles. Gosh, I wish I had enough time to blog about how amazing Chronicles is. Numbers is way better though, I am being serious. The book of Numbers lays out the rest of the OT, dig in next time you start a yearly reading.
Key to success, read the Bible first thing. See 5:30 was hard when I was going to bed at 10. Now I read my Bible first thing no matter what and cha-ching, I have the energy to push through for another 20 hours. That includes at least 12 hours with a toddler. Bring on the Scootie (my nickname for him).
No Bible = No energy
My Bible reading is how I know this is God powering me through. He wants me to do big things. I can just tell, or maybe at this point, I am hallucinating. No Bible = no energy. I missed Tuesday, oh what a terrible day for productivity. He knows that if I let this book sit until November it won’t be published until February. I think that might actually be too demoralizing for me to continue on in the marketing and strategy and writing of the next few books God has for me. God is giving me energy because I need it. Ironically enough here I am writing an article that I don’t have time for because that’s where my energy is now. I have to get this writing done.
Tale of Two Jays
If I don’t write, I don’t edit. If I don’t edit I don’t get other things done. I am the best and the worst. This short time period opens just like that fateful novel, A Tale of Two Cities. I love that I am able to stay up and work my butt off. I love that I have something I want to work my butt off for. But I know that tomorrow is going to be its own brand of insanity. Toddlers give you nothing less. I hate that I am going to be exhausted for my kid. He deserves better. Yet, God keeps enabling me to do better.
I pour out everything I have every day. Maybe God is training me to rely on Him. Like I said early No Bible = No energy. Maybe this is my own way of fasting in the desert, though I would much rather be fasting from dessert (#dadjokes). I am constantly balancing these two versions of myself and for some reason (probably the Holy Spirit) it keeps working out. I have the energy and drive, and I keep waking up to do it the next day.
Have you ever experienced this time of life? If so when, what was the outcome? I would love to hear how you all made it through. What was the cost?
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